So, I've been M.I.A. for a little while. It's been quite the adjustment, moving to the new Centre and trying to keep up with all the new "business" things that I've never had to deal with before. I feel like Dr. McCoy from Star Trek and I want to say things like "Dammit Jim! I'm a healer, not businesswoman!" but the truth is that now I'm both...and I am doing my best to love and support both sides of me. There are days when I wake up and wonder if I'm doing the right thing, if I can make this all work, and if I should just go back to the way things were. Then there are the other days, the more common days, when I wake up with so much gratitude for what I've been able to accomplish and for all the people who are working so hard to help me create this beautiful life.
So this morning, a glorious Sunday morning, when I woke up to find that the 300 emails that appeared in my inbox during my time away has now turned to 329 despite the fact that I've already answered a slew of them, I stopped. I snuggled with my kid and then we meditated outside for a bit together....well, I did. Then I had a cup of coffee and went grocery shopping with my family. I realized that I was getting so stressed by all the things that haven't been done yet, that I wasn't doing anything at all. Sundays have always been sacred to me and I decided to take it back. I'll still get to all those emails. Maybe I'll do it tonight when my daughter has gone to bed. Maybe I'll start on them again first thing in the morning. Today is for me. I deserve that. I love that and I love myself enough to let that happen.
In love and healing,